Some days I open my eyes out of a dead sleep and I can feel the beauty radiate through the room at first glance, I can tell that the world will be kind to me, that I’ll be able to connect with the inspiration that I need to fight my demons on a regular basis. Other days I wake up and the room is just a little darker, heavier. The sun shines through the blinds but it isn’t beautiful, it’s filled with the weight of reality, a ray of fucking sunshine to make you remember just how fucked you actually are. As you drink your morning coffee, the world presses down on you, growing heavier by the minute, filling your soul with fog and making it harder to see and understand the way forward. These are the days that I understand the reality that no matter what, no matter how far away I run and no matter how big of an empire I can build I will still wake up with claws at my throat, with inspiration dying at my bedside because I choose to walk a road that rejects the darkness in my soul, I choose to fight back against my demons every single day, to break down the toxicity that has been drilled into my existence from the day I was born and rebuild with beautiful golden bricks of joy. And these bricks, they are covered in shit that needs to be scraped off with your fucking fingernails until your hands bleed, you have to really put your fucking back into it to pick them up before the waves of shit cover them again and you’re stuck on repeat. I’ve spent so many days now waking up in the darkness and rolling out of bed filled with fury ready to viciously progress my life and it’s always been just as hard as the days that come before. People will always say that it gets easier, it doesn’t; This is an everyday war and you are enlisted for life so pick up your fire and fury and get ready for the fight against your darkest self. The deepest reality of this fight is that it determines the outcome of your entire life, no more wasted days. You have to cast the darkness aside each and every day of your life and choose to walk in a light of your own creation.