imposter syndrome// sometimes, especially when I'm in academic settings, I'm plagued by the feeling that i don't belong. that i got in by some egregious mistake. i choke on words, spit, gurgle, spew. hold my breath, waiting for someone to tell me my name's not on the list after all. I'm lucky to be surrounded by wonderful minds and hearts that tell me I'm a whole person, no matter how fragmented, and that my thoughts and ideas are valid. but i need to look into the mirror more often and say those words to my own face, from my own lips.