The Dimples look deeper when you’ve got a chubby face 😑
A lot of time last year was spent in binge-eating and Netflix. 2019 wasn’t that great tbh and I completely let myself go- late nights and junk food and staying home in a cocoon. I reached a point where I didn’t give a fuck anymore and resorted to food as a source of comfort.
Come 2020, the whole ‘new year new me’ shenanigans have begun- the difference being that for once I’ve actually decided to take things in hand and the first step is to get back in shape 😉
Sharing this lil info just so even if there’s one person out there who’s struggling to get a hold of themselves- Here u go. Social media is deceiving - You only see what people choose to show you. Don’t get influenced by all that you see. There’s a lot that goes on behind the scenes.
So Come, let’s do this together. Get up, take control of your life, start by being fit ,stay positive and spend your twenties creating memories.
Fun fact: I was about 6 week pregnant in this photo and I was pretty sure I was at the time.
We hadn’t confirmed it yet but we’d already done the IUI and I felt fairly certain that it had worked.
I was so excited to do this shoot, having this little secret. And I’m so glad I did.
To be completely honest, I actually feel quite sexy while pregnant- despite the fact I don’t actually enjoy the whole pregnancy thing. And it happens to be when I have as little clothing on as possible lol 😂
Are we allowed to feel sexy when we’re pregnant?? Or is that still a taboo thing?
Ps. Planning some pretty hot maternity shoots rn 😏
Когда хочешь почувствовать себя девушкой Бонда - надевай платье и лезь в воду 😏 #красиваядевушкапустьрадуетглаз
I hate taking sitting photos. It was so bad that I actually told people to never take or post any photos of me sitting. I looked like a sack of potatoes and I had already learned how to trick the camera into making my stomach look flatter with angles.
Because my body dysmorphia was (and still can be) very extreme, I would not sit down around people or I’d sit a certain way and suck my stomach in so I wouldn’t be seen as “too fat”. A lot of people compliment me on my “flat” stomach, saying they wish their stomachs were flat like mine when it reality it’s not flat at all. I have a fupa just like the rest. Mine can just be hidden sometimes 😂
Often times we “wish” we had the attributes of another, usually ones that society has placed beauty value on. I used to pray to God for long wavy hair and dainty arms and a flat tummy like Beyoncé. I wished for straight teeth and longer legs and a slimmer nose.
I remember being 8 or 9 and planning which surgeries I was going to get when I became an adult.
Even as someone who preaches body positivity and self-love, the ingrained ideologies of fatphobia and colorism still exists. It’s a battle some days to see the beauty in myself.
For all those who would like to know how one builds self-esteem: What I’ve found helpful is to keep looking at myself. No matter how ugly I feel/think that I am. No matter how my fupa looks or how big my arm is. I keep taking photos. I keep posting angles that I don’t necessarily care for. I force myself to discover the beauty in my face and body.
In what ways do you challenge “beauty standards”? Are you confident in your abilities to find the beauty in yourself or are you struggling with the way you believe you look? How young were you when you noticed you wanted to change your body? Let’s chat. 📸 @alexis.devaney#newyorkblogger#psootd#plussize#instafashion#bodypositive#bgki#honormycurves#effyourbeautystandards#pizzasisters4lyfe#blackgirlswhoblog#fashion#londonblogger#psfashion#blackgirlmagic#muslimgirl#bodyconfidence#plusmodel#feminist#wiw#intersectionalfeminism#turbanista#bodydysmorphia#fatacceptance#selflove#unashamedleahv#boudoir#queen#ootd#animalprint
I just like this baby😏
А вообще, все чаще в последнее время так почесываю голову, как Ксюша на фото (правда, одета я не столь изящно в эти моменты истины), и подумываю: а, может, пойти учиться? Вот будь у вас возможность, какие бы новые знания хотели получить? Винная школа не в счет - тут понятно, все хотят 😏#красиваядевушкапустьрадуетглаз и да: #красотаумунепомеха 😁